I don't feel like posting tonight. Sorry, but it's true. We went shopping today to buy a suitcase, and all of the things that need to go back with Nastia. I tried to make it fun, but deep inside...it really wasn't. I don't think it was for Nastia either. She was excited to buy gifts for her closest friends, but she didn't even want to look at me for a while after I bought her suitcase. She had fun working on her photo album tonight. I think it made her think about the fun things we have done, and helped her forget about leaving for a while.
I have been tearing up all day, and I broke down when I kissed her goodnight. I tried SO HARD not to, but I couldn't stop the tears. I didn't want to put her to bed feeling sad, and knowing how sad I am. And now...I'm going to go grab a box of tissues and cry myself to sleep. It's a "mother's love "shining through... She is definitely part of my heart.
13 hours ago