Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I don't feel like it

I don't feel like posting tonight. Sorry, but it's true. We went shopping today to buy a suitcase, and all of the things that need to go back with Nastia. I tried to make it fun, but deep inside...it really wasn't. I don't think it was for Nastia either. She was excited to buy gifts for her closest friends, but she didn't even want to look at me for a while after I bought her suitcase. She had fun working on her photo album tonight. I think it made her think about the fun things we have done, and helped her forget about leaving for a while.
I have been tearing up all day, and I broke down when I kissed her goodnight. I tried SO HARD not to, but I couldn't stop the tears. I didn't want to put her to bed feeling sad, and knowing how sad I am. And now...I'm going to go grab a box of tissues and cry myself to sleep. It's a "mother's love "shining through... She is definitely part of my heart.


  1. Can't even imagine how hard it is! It is so easy to get attached and you don't even in this age of easy keeping in touch it just is hard from that far away with a language in between besides. Be sure and enjoy these last couple of days to their fullest though!!!! Don't waste them feeling sad!

  2. I'll you and all the other host moms after Sunday. i'm devastated. I honestly do not know how I'm going to drive us home from the airport...

  3. Oh Kerry my heart goes out to you both. I know that the coming days will be the most precious ones.

    Smile, love, embrace, laugh, and enjoy the next days like never before.

    I'm praying for you both.



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